Chapter 39
“Do I know you?” I asked her c*****g my head to the side. She smiled and shook her head
“No. But you know my daughter Ren I believe” A light bulb flashed in my head and I smiled, of course she was Ren’s mother the similarities were obvious
“You look a lot alike” I told her and she nodded
“That’s what my husband says as well” she held her bag “Okay honey get well soon and don’t put too much pressure on that arm. I’m going now get some rest honey I’ll tell those boys not to bother you til tomorrow.”
“You don’t have to I’m fin I–” I started but she interrupted
“No you are my patient and these are doctor’s orders. Now rest” I smirked and nodded, resting my head on the pillow and allowing myself to fall deep asleep, I thanked god we decided to take a day off from school
tomorrow cause frankly I wouldn’t have gone either way.
I woke up hours later and noticed it was dark now about 1 AM, my mind went through the events of the
day. I never could get much sleep after a fight and this was just too close, I almost lost Xavier in it. I found
myself in need of some fresh air. I stood up and put on a jacket over my tank top and sweats and went to
the backyard and kept walking till I reached the lake.
The lake was one of my favorite places before I left, it always made me feel peaceful. I sat on the edge of
it, hugging my knees to myself and leaning against the tree beside me.
“thought I’d find you here” I head an all too familiar voice say behind me. I looked behind me and sighed
“Not tonight Ethan please, not tonight” I said looking back at the lake. I heard him sigh and could imagine
him running his hand through his hair.
“I just wanted to see if you were okay Lily” he said and I heard his footsteps coming closer. “I mean it’s
been an interesting day for you”
I chuckled humorlessly and shook my head “That’s one way to describe it” He sat beside me
“how did you know about the explosion?” he asked and I sighed tightening the robe around me
“he told me.. didn’t catch his name but I’m guessin he’s the boss of them” I said still staring at the lake, not
wanting to look at him yet.
“you scared me” he said in a barely audible voice that I doubted I heard him, but I did.
“What?” my brows furrowed and I finally looked at him, only he wasn’t looking at me, his eyes were on his lap
“When I saw….when I saw you after you pushed Xavier. When the house exploded I…I was terrified Lily, i’s a sight I never want to see again: you hurt.”
I didn’t answer and averted my gaze back to the lake., the moonlight was shining on it making it look
breathtaking.
“I think I should go sleep now” I said just as a slight breeze came and my jacket opened just a bit.
Ethan clutched the grass with his hands and nodded “This time I think you should” he glanced at my open robe that I hastily closed again.
I got up and started walking away when I heard tell me to wait I urned around and waited for him to talk
“When I took you to paintball. Why did you hit me? I saw in your eyes Lily you weren’t going to but then suddenly changed your mind. Am I wrong?”
“No you’re right” I admitted honestly”I wasn’t really intending on hitting you”
He looked at me in confusion “then why the painful kick?”
I smirked as I remembered our time, I actually, sorta had fun but I was determined to prove Xavier wrong, that I wasn’t really a pathetic silly little mate but when I hit him it wasn’t about that, it was about what he
said
“you called me beautiful” I stated before turning on my heel and leaving without hearing his response, he
wouldn’t get it, of that I was sure. Hell, no normal person would get it. I spent most of my time with them
two years ago listening to how ugly and fat I was, just because I lost weight and became ‘hot’ I was
suddenly beautiful? I didn’t want that
I walked back to my room and stopped in my tracks. Perfect I thought Just freaking perfect
“hey” he said awkwardly, standing near my bed “I knew you have trouble…um..sleeping after a fight so…l
mean…I always used to sleep with you so…you could sleep…good…so I…uh…came”
I looked a Xavier and shook my head. It’s true Xavier always helped me sleep after a fight but I was
wondering now if he ever really wanted to.
Since when did we become like this? standing awkwardly not knowing what to say? since when were
Xavier and I so apart? Had I really lost Xavier?
“you know what? No” I said “I’m not losing you Jase.” he was about to say something but I cut him off “I
mean I know how I was when I first came, I know how pathetic I was, but I…just…I was..you know what I
just came from. I didn’t know I was a burden I didn’t know you put up with me and I’m sorry. I guess I…I
guess I depended on you too much” I looked at the ground “I just thought….I thought of you guys as family. I’ll stop depending on you. I’ll stop being a burden.” I gulped “but I won’t lose you Jase. I can’t lose you cause even if you don’t think the same you’re my family, my best friend.” I looked back at him “And I want
my best friend back”
