-LANA-
Apollo remains silent for the rest of the drive home, not once acknowledging what I told him earlier, it leaves me questioning if even asked him to reject
me at all.
Could it be that I said the entire thing in my head? It wouldn’t be the first time that’s happened. But still, I was almost certain those words had escaped my lips earlier.
When he pulls up to the house, I turn to him, noticing his body is tense, like he’s holding back a storm within himself it makes me convinced that I did n fact tell him to reject me
“About what I said earlier
I’m cut off when he turns toward me, his eyes shimmering dangerously in the dark, as though he’s wrestling with his wolf to keep control cantall what he’s thinking but he definitely does not want to listen to a word out of me.
“No,” he growls. “You are my mate. I will not reject you. Not today. Not ever.”
It takes me a few seconds to finally recover from hearing his words.
I gasp at his declaration. How could he say something like that and still go through with marrying someone else? I did not understand how he could be this way with me.
“Apollo”
“Lana, please,” he pleads. “Don’t go there. I don’t know how I would react.”
His fists are clenched at his sides, and I can see the internal struggle playing out in him.
How can he so boldly declare that he won’t reject me and free me from this bond when he has every intention of marrying someone else?
His reaction fuels my anger further. Does he even care about me at all? How could he think any of this is okay?
He can’t choose to marry someone else and then show up for me, offering apologies that should be coming from his mother instead. I cannot just stay here and pretend that everything is okay. I can’t act like he does.
“Then how do you think Heel?” I demand, unable to hold back. “How do you think my heart feels knowing you’re about to get engaged to another
woman, Apollo!”
Tana-
“No” cut him off sharply. “You can’t keep doing this to me. You can’t keep switching from hot to cold and dodging all my questions. You don’t want to let me into your life. You refuse to open up. Yet I’m supposed to just sit idly while you move on right before my eyes! The woman you’re supposed to marry is living with us, for crying out loud, and your mother throws insults at me every chance she gets even though she barely knows me!”
1 see him wince at my words. I know that it is affecting him when he steps out of the vehicle. Is he trying to run away from his problem censo far, every time I tried to bring up a serious conversation with him, he chose to disappear for a while until I simply do the topic
This time. I don’t plan on letting that happen. We were having this discussion today whether he liked it or not
follow him out but gasp when he suddenly grabs me by the wart and pushes me against the car hood instead of trying to disappear like he usually
“I don’t want to hurt you” he whispers, his voice shaky. “Please believe me when I say this, Lana Hurting you it kills me too.”
if that were true he wouldn’t keep doing this to us. He wouldn’t keep putting us through this torture he would give us a lighting chancel
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I narrow my eyes, fears welling up. “Then why are you going
He inhales sharply and then says,
other choice
How could he possibly not have a choice? There is always a way out
“I’m so sorry,” he murmurs, burying his face in my neck. “I really am
Part of me wants to bring him closer and comfort him. He looks so helpless in this moment, and it makes my heart.
If it hurts him so much, why can’t he just defy his mother? Are they bound by some kind of contract? There has to be a reasonable explanation, but he isn’t sharing any of it with me!
“I don’t want to put you through this,” he continues. “This is the last thing I want
Fighting through the pain,
isper. “Then you have to reject me. You need to end this misery. You could easily marry Jada without any ties to me once
you sever our bond. It’s what you have to do, Apolo”
His grip on my waist tightens, and he growls low and fierce, can’t do that, Lana. I just can’t
if he refuses to do it, should I? Should I put an end to all of this once and for all?
I’m still pressed against the front of his car, in the middle of the driveway, and our family could pull up any second, catching us in this vulnerable moment.
Is Apollo even considering this? He doesn’t seem to be in the because, just like him, I don’t want to reject him either.
ght state of mind. I can’t possibly reject him like this, and I know I’m finding excuses
“Then just talk to me,” I beg “Please. Explain why it’s so crucial for you to do exactly what your mother says. Tell me why you can’t fight for us to be together.”
I refuse to believe that Apollo doesn’t care about me can’t accept that all these kisses were nothing but a game to him
“Please, tell me the reason,” I whis
gently cupping his cheek with my hand. “I can help you, Apollo. All you have to do is let me in, just a little. Please. I
can’t help if i don’t understand what’s going on ”
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