Chapter 80
APOLLO-
I need to tell her.
Damn it. More than anything, I want Lana to know just how chaotic my family life is I want her to understand what unfolds back home when my mother doesn’t get her way. I want her to know that I was the one left to pick up the pieces when my father abandoned my mother.
For once, I wanted to share my burden with someone else,
There’s so much I want to share with her right now, but I hold back. I’ve spent my life shielding my mother, and even now, when my mate in asking for answers, I can’t bring myself to reveal the truth. Hear what might happen to my mother’s reputation–something that means the world to her, I was so accustomed to protecting her even from herself that my mouth couldn’t open to say the words screaming in my head.
Besides, knowing the truth wouldn’t change anything for Lana. She wouldn’t be able to help me, and this is a sacrifice I’ve chosen to witnessing my mother’s struggles when my father left, I promised myself I would never break that vow to keep her happy and protected
Avivid image of my mother, screaming with blood on her hands, floods back into my mind.
Fuck. Those memories don’t help. They’ve haunted me for years, echoing in my mind–the cries, the screams, the devastation, I can still picture my sister’s tear streaked face as she hid away, scared to come out. The image of sending my younger brothers to study in another country to shield them from the memories that haunt me daily also taunts me.
I swore I would always prioritize and protect them. The family my father abandoned for Lana’s mother was the family didn’t want to give up on. They needed me
I can’t break that promise. I’d never forgive myself if i did.
But now, with Lana in front of me, begging me to let her in just a little, I feel tom. More than anything, I want to grant her request. Little does she know that making her happy is what I wish I could do without damaging my mother in the process.
However, understand that I can’t please one without hurting the other. Things would have been a lot easier if everything weren’t so complicated
Dammit
could fool Lana’s body pressed against mine, her ass resting against the front of my car. Even now, she looked irresistibly sexy, and I couldn’t help but
want to devour her.
The taste of her still lingered in my mouth. I craved her again. But I had sworn I wouldn’t go down that road again–I was being unfair to my mane by coming back for more when i had already committed to Jada. But how can I resist when it feels like I’ll die if I don’t hold or kiss her?
“You’re not saying anything” she cries. “Once again, you’re completely quiet and shutting me out.
My jaw tightened.
That’s not what I was doing I was trying to shield her from my chaotic life, that was all Lana thought my mother was lough now, the wouldn’t want to be around her if she ever found out about us. I knew my mother would do anything to break us apart. She was determined for me to be with Jada, and nothing would sway her from that path, it didn’t help that my mate came from the one family my mother despised above all else, Instead of directing her anger at my father, she pinned it on Lana’s mother/She was the one she hated the most but ever since mother came here to stay, it felt like all her hatred was directed at my step–sister,
That’s not the life I wanted for my mate. She deserves happiness and peace, not a life spent constantly competing supportive of us.
Lana may believe
e who should be
ignoring her feelings, but the truth is I’m doing this for her sake. She at least deserves an explanation, and I know that much, But! can’t do it I can’t share the answers she longs for
Seeing her like this, all vulnerable and begging for me to tell her something was sending me over the edge. I can feel the control slowly slipping away
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Chapter 80
Our bodies are pressed tightly against each other and I would be lying III said I didn’t for kings
I can’t stop myself as I press my lips to hers. It was just supposed to be a peck, but the second I get a tade, the hunger within grows, that’s Tbury my hands in her hale and deepen the kiss, pulling her bottom lip into my mouth and sucking hard Kissing Lana again when I told her was the wrong move. She would no doubt hate me even mom for this.
But wasn’t that what I wanted since the beginning! For my mate to hate me, for her to think of me as simply a heartless player who enjoyed sleeping around. My plan was working for a long time until she started showing interest in me.
Lana breaks the kiss, “not” she gasps. “You cannot keep doing this to me, You can’t keep making me fall more for you only to let me see you with someone else. You can’t keep doing this to me, Apollol it’s unfair to me.”
My heart aches at the pain in her voice. She was right was taking things too far and being selfish with my mate. I had been asking far too much of her
If I truly cared about her, I needed to put my loot down and stick to one decision. I couldn’t keep playing with her emotions. She deserved mine than
this.
“I’m sorry,” I whisper.
“You’re the worst!” she exclaims, shoving me away before sprinting into the house,
“FUCK” prowl as kick the tire in frustration,
Why do I keep screwing things up!
Before I can grasp the whirlwind of emotions, my mother’s car pulls up next to mine. It’s just her and Jada; they must have left the others behind to track
us down.
I should have seen that coming The second she saw me leave, I’m sure she made an excuse to follow me.
At least Lana is already inside. That means she won’t have to face my mother right now. I have nowhere to run and hide
I didn’t want to go anywhere since I needed to speak to my mother, I had to confront her about her behavior ever since she came here to stay with us
Her continuous insults were unnecessary and uncalled for.
I would not allow that anymore. I should have never allowed it from the start. it ends now.
AD
