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Goodbye 169

 

“That girl, Camille, is really nice. I like her a lot,” I said to James. 

“Yeah, Camille is the best. She designs and makes the best freaking clothes for plus-sized women. They are gorgeous and flattering. She’s got a showcase coming up. I can get us all tickets if you want to go?” James said as he took a bite of the beef rib on his plate. 

We were all hiding in Isha’s girl cave. I guess you could call it. A room where she could write and be by herself if she wanted to. 

“Okay, it’s time to spill. I need to know what is going on with you two,” Isha said. 

I looked at James, and he looked at me, and then we looked at Ava, Savvy and Isha. 

“I don’t think my guys want me anymore,” we both said at the same time, and then we both gasped, before we all burst into laughter. 

God that felt good after the emotional day I’ve been having. 

“Okay, who wants to go first? And just so you know, they’re going to be looking for you. But I texted Dawson and told them to stall all of them for at least half an hour.” 

“Thank you,” I said. And James nodded. “You first; James. I need to hear someone else’s drama right now.” 

He nodded. “Well, the guys have to go on runs for the club. You all know this. Normally, when they go on a run, they make sure to call every night, or send a text, and they did for the first few days. The last text I got from them was that they both loved me, and that was it. Radio silence for five days. I didn’t think they would even be home for this barbecue. They just showed up last night, and they didn’t say anything to me about their silence. They acted like nothing had happened, and last night in bed, we didn’t have s*x. They both said they were exhausted. That’s never happened before. When we got here, I commented on Camille’s suit. She looked gorgeous and Savage said she looked good enough to eat. Like, who says that when they’re in a relationship? It had shocked me and I glared at him. He grabbed me and whispered in my ear that I had better get that look off my face, or he’d punish me. Normally, that would get me excited, but I wasn’t. I was just hurt, so I walked away before I said something that I would regret. And he didn’t come after me. That’s another thing that would have happened three weeks ago. He would have chased me down, but Camille did instead. She asked if I was mad at her, and I told her no. Then she tried to reassure me that Savage was just messing around. I told her I didn’t want to talk about it, so we talked about her showcase instead. Then you guys came with a plate for me and here we are. I just feel like they’re hiding something, or maybe they messed around with someone and don’t know how to tell me, or they’re done. I mean we’ve been together for a year and a few months, it’s been bliss, but maybe they’re bored. I know they like to f*ck women too. I’m pretty sure Isha is the last one they’ve f*cked but maybe over this year, while they’ve been on runs or visited other clubhouses, they’ve taken part in some activities with club wh*res or maybe another guy. I don’t know,” he said, as he took his napkin and whipped at his right eye. I grabbed his hand and squeezed it. 

“Have you talked to them?” Ava asked. 

“I haven’t really had the chance. Like I said, they came home, declared they were tired, they showered, and we all went to bed. I tried to ask how the run was today, but they both just told me club business, and I understand that, but there has to be something they can say, right?” 

“From what I understand about club business, they can’t say sh*t. The research I’ve done with the help of Wolf, is only the brothers of the club get to know about club business, not even their women get told anything,” Ava said. 

Best Friends Are The Best 

“Yeah, I know,” James said, popping a stuffed cherry in his mouth. “D*mn Shay, these are good.” 

“Thanks,” I said, smiling. 

“James, they can’t talk about club business and for them to go radio silence, it most likely means they were in a dangerous situation and probably had to kill some people. That’s what happens when the teams go radio silence,” Isha said, and I nodded. “But what you can do is tell them how you are feeling. Because the Rage and Savage, I know, adore the f*ck out of you. They love you so much, they hate seeing you affectionate towards us, and we’re all like sisters to you. So make them sit down and talk to them. And I bet they will show you how much you still mean to them.” 

“Yeah, I guess you’re right. It’s just I’m so d*mn insecure when it comes to us. I don’t know why. They are so gorgeous, but I know they like women too, and I’m the one keeping them from living that part of themselves. I can’t share them. I 

won’t do it.” 

“And you shouldn’t have to. You’re all in a committed relationship. We all make sacrifices for the ones we love. Because look at me. I love Aaron with all of me, but I wouldn’t mind bringing another woman into our relationship, and when Isha 

and I did our thing at that one barbecue, I thought that maybe he’d be more open to it. But he said, although it was hot to 

watch me get eaten out while he f*cked me, he didn’t want that as a relationship. And I respect that,” Ava said. 

James nodded. “You’re right. I’ll talk to them. Thanks guys. You are all the best. I love you all so much.” 

“We love you too,” Savvy said. 

We all ate a little. They told me my crab cakes were amazing, and they all loved the stuffed cherries. 

“Okay, your turn, why are you so sad? Are things not going how you thought they would? I thought everything was going 

great the last time we spoke,” Savvy said. 

“They were going great until Friday. A little backstory on Bryson. I don’t mind telling you, because you’re all my best 

friends and without it you wouldn’t understand. Bryson had this best friend he grew up with. They were obviously super 

close. He also had a girlfriend that I think he was going to marry. Anyway, he used to work for a smaller security place 

and was gone on training. He was supposed to be gone for two weeks, but he came home and found his best friend f*cking his girlfriend in Bryson’s and her bed.” 

“NO!” Savvy and Ava exclaimed and Isha and James gasped. 

I nodded and told them it all. Conner’s excuse why, then me meeting him in the grocery store, seeing him at the farmers’ 

market, his confession about his DUI and seeing me in the store. 

“He apologized profusely to Bryson. We just left, and since then, Bryson’s been out of it. Lost in his head. I was in his arms 

naked, and he didn’t so much as look at me. I know I need to let him process it all, but it hurts. He won’t turn to me for 

comfort. And I know I shouldn’t make this about me, because this is a huge deal, but I just can’t help it and that’s not even 

the worst part of why I feel they don’t want me.” 

I told them everything else with Bryce and how he panicked about me, saying I love you. 

“They tell me I’m it for them, but it doesn’t really seem like it now. One can’t tell me he loves me and the other can’t open up to me and let me comfort him. Deep down I feel like I’m being selfish, that it’s only been a d*mn week really. It’s been a hell of a whirlwind, but I opened my heart and I let them in, and now I think I’m just d*mb for doing it, and getting my hopes up.” 

“No, Shay. Your feelings are valid. I knew if the situation was reversed, and you were shutting Bryson out, he’d be all over you about it, trying to get you to open up to him, and I’m sure if Bryce told you he loved you, and you didn’t say it back, he would have stormed away, shut you both out or something. Or been a real d*ck about it, because that’s how guys mostly are when they don’t get their way,” Savvy said. 

“That’s the truth, usually when Rage doesn’t get his way with Savage and me, he becomes a big baby, and starts being a 

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smart ass and snarky. But when we don’t react to his foolishness, he gets all apologetic and needy. Savage, he’ll squeeze you out. Won’t talk to you for days. He hasn’t done that to me, because I haven’t done anything to ever really piss him off, but he’s done it to Rage. Savage will f*ck me, and not touch Rage. If we are having group s*x it’s all about me. Rage gets pissed. But then he’ll apologize to Savage for whatever he did, and they are all over each other. It’s hot to watch.” 

“Aaron gets really polite. Like so polite, I want to stab him in the eye. When I finally coax whatever I did to piss him off out of him, he’ll explain how he felt about whatever I did or said. Normally, I just give him a really good blow job, and I’m forgiven. He says he gets that way because he doesn’t want to yell at me. But it’s like Stepford wife creepy and I hate it.” 

We all laughed. 

“I don’t ever piss Mac and Jack off, so I don’t know what that’s like,” Savvy said. I just threw a carrot at her, and she giggled and then shrugged her shoulders. 

“I also haven’t experienced any of that with the guys. But again, like with James, you need to talk to them. Sit them down, tell them how you are feeling. Communication guys, it’s key. Maybe that’s why Savvy and I haven’t experienced what you three have. Because we don’t hold anything back and let them have it,” Isha said. Again we all laughed. They’re right. Communication is key. But it goes both ways. I can’t be the only one talking about my feelings. 

I told them I loved them all, and we all hugged before finishing our plates. Suddenly, I heard my name being yelled, and James heard his being bellowed. 

“Guess, we’re out of time,” I said. 

“Better get up there. Rage and Savage will tear this place apart to find me.” 

Isha cursed, and we all hurried to gather our things and made our way out of the hidden room that was behind a 

bookcase in Dawson’s study. It was so freaking cool. 

How Do I Know? 

Bryce 

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