Chapter 129
Darian’s touch was gentle and soft but when I watched him I saw the man that chained me to the bed, the one that fucked his Bells like that’s all they were good for and then pushed me around like a dog on a leash- pulling me in when he felt like it.
“Please stop,” I grabbed his hands and lowered them. My skin got cold from losing his touch, it was like I was at war with myself, wanting him to touch him while also preferring him at a distance.
It wasn’t logical, it was stupid and wrong but there was something in his eyes when he looked at me that warmed my soul and not just my body.
He took a step back and dropped his head. I’d forgotten how big he was, broad shoulders that never hung and a head truly fit for a crown.
Darian walked around the room, he took slow steps and looked at the empty walls and the little desk in the corner. He drew a breath and became bigger, broader, and looked even stronger.
“Just over a year ago my driver crossed the border to the Silver Moon Pack,”
That’s my old pack. Several stories he could pitch me passed through my mind and I can’t help but think how nice it must be for Zade who could read thoughts. It seemed to be the only way to tell who someone truly is.
“It was just me and the driver, Gabriel stayed back to handle one of the rogue packs that had taken to vandalize the south border of the Celestial Pack, it was a mess but easily handled with the right pair of hands. The entire ride away from the palace and my pack, driving past towns and borders where thousands of people resided, all I could think was Why the fuck didn’t I just send Gabe?’. We drove past this statue of the first ever Alpha of the Silver Moon Pack and his wolf and I looked past it, because it was to hideous to watch, and there was this girl. She was playing with her little sister by the lake and she had an attitude that was bigger than she was,”
I gulped and he turned around with a playful glint in his eyes.
“She was enchanting- utterly unafraid with a complete disregard for rules. I asked about her later when I met with Alpha Steele,” he said and put his hands in his pockets, “it wasn’t Steele that answered me though, it was his father, he said that she was one of the rebels, born to be a warrior but sentenced to life as a girl. It wasn’t what he said but rather how he said it, like being a girl was somehow a punishment for you and I remember that we laughed,” his voice took on a somber tone and he looked at me, the glint was gone, and left behind a dark void.
“Come the Hunt and there she was, standing at my mercy, completely unaware of the hell that awaited her. It was never my decision who to choose, the Councilmen and the Elder had more eyes on me than I was aware of and they knew that I had asked about you. They knew that I was, not only fascinated but infatuated with you and we had never said a word to one another. For a werewolf, it’s called the mate bond but for a Lycan it’s different. You see, we can’t reject, we can’t not live without our person, we can’t ever lose them from our mind or our heart once they are there. All it took was for me to see you, look at your eyes, and be captivated by your smile for the few seconds that I drove through your pack, and then I was done. I knew that I needed you, you were mine, and because of that I have put you through the worst imaginable pain that I wouldn’t wish upon anyone but I need you to know; that I felt every ounce of your pain every time, whether it was your body or your heart that I hurt,”
A shuddering gasp left my lips and my jaw relaxed from its tightened hold.
This wasn’t how this was supposed to go, this wasn’t the truth I expected but something resonated with the deepest, most hidden parts of me.
The attraction, the pull towards him, everything I had ignored and pushed down because I couldn’t possibly ever feel for that man, suddenly pressed against
the box that I had locked it all in.
“Don’t,” I said and reached out my hand to keep him from walking closer.
Everything that Darian’s ever done to me was flashing before my eyes and I was trying to piece together what he was saying and overlap it with the deeds he’d done but all it did was make the pain come back and this time it was somehow worse.
He was saying that I was his soulmate, the one person who was made for him, and for that I deserved hell.
I wiped away a stray tear and forced the others down.
There was not a chance that I’d stand here and cry when at any moment now he could laugh in my face and tell me that this was all another game to him.
“Hazel, please,” he reached out his hand but I shook my head. The only thing that suddenly engulfed my mind and my memories were them.
“My dad will never give me a hug at my wedding,” I said and looked him through tear-filled eyes, and my mom will never hold my children,”
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The Alpha’s Hunt
