Chapter 101
Chapter 101
~LANA
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This felt like a nightmare. Apollo’s words hurt a lot. However I still held onto the hope that he was trying to push me away. I wanted to believe that this
wasn’t the real him.
I try to move closer to him but he pushes backwards, alm
What was going on?
as
though he was afraid that I would touch him.
I stay completely still as I whisper, “Please, tell me this isn’t the real you. Please tell me you’re doing the same thing you confessed to doing in the past.”
I knew this wouldn’t be the first time he’s done or said things to make me feel as though he didn’t care about me.
“Please say you’re only trying to protect me. Tell me you’re pushing me away for reasons beyond your control.”I gasp between tears. “Don’t break my heart like this. Please, I’m begging you, Apollo. It’s too much for me to handle.”
He turns his heated gaze on me again, and for a brief moment, I catch a flicker of despair in that I can’t help but think that maybe I was just imagining things.
his eyes before he quickly masks it. It all happened so fast
“I told you from the beginning that there could never be anything between us,” he reminds me firmly. “I made it clear that we’re practically siblings, and it wouldn’t work. I asked you to stay away. How is it my fault you chose not to listen?”
My heart shattered into pieces. I couldn’t believe how cold he was being.
What had changed between us? And how could I stay away when his kisses were always so passionate, like he was starving for me?
“Did I do something wrong?” I whispers, searching his face for answers. I simply wanted a proper explanation for this major change in his behavior.
“No.”
“Then help me understand,” I plead, desperation creeping into my voice. “Please, I need to know why you’re treating me like this! I deserve to know!”
He glanced at his watch, as if he had somewhere better to be than here. “I already told you it was all a mistake.”
“No!” I shout. “As your mate, I deserve the truth, Apollo. I can’t believe it was just a mistake for you. You made me feel special, like I mattered to you. It’s hard to accept that this is how you really feel. This change only came after that night your mother found me in your room. I know it’s connected to that day, and you refuse to tell me the truth.”
He narrows his eyes. “You’ve got it all wrong. My mother knew I was just messing around with you like I did with all those other girls. She told me to stop so you wouldn’t get hurt in the long run. That is exactly what I’m doing.” He informs me. “I’m marrying Jada soon; there was never a future for us.”
No. No. No.
This can’t be true. I felt like I was losing my mind, grappling with this version of my mate.
“You can’t do this to me!” t cry. “You can’t, Apollo! You just can’t!”
My voice grew louder, and he noticed. Without warning, he covered my mouth with his hand and pushed me into the bathroom a few feet away from us.
His hand muffled my voice, trapping me in silence.
We stood there in the dim light, both of us breathing heavily, the warmth of our shared tension filling the air around us. My heart raced as I stared into his bright yet distant eyes, feeling an electric connection that momentarily transported me back to those blissful days when I had my Apollo–the one that actually cared about me and would do anything to protect my heart. But like the flicker of a candle about to be extinguished, the magic quickly vanished- Everything shifted again, breaking the spell and plunging us back into the reality I desperately wanted to escape
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Chapter 101
“Lana,” he says seriously, “can you please stop this? I’ve already told you what I needed to say. Yelling or acting out won’t change anything about tomorrow. The engagement is happening.”
No.
Please don’t say that. A wave of nausea washed over me, and if he didn’t stop this soon, I might spend the rest of the night throwing up.
“Are you really serious about this?” I whisper. “You’re ac
His jaw clenched. “I already gave you the answer.”
“I can’t believe you’re doing this to me,” I whisper, like you absolutely hate me!”
planning on getting engaged to Jada tomorrow?”
voice breaking. “After everything. I let you in; I opened my life to you, and now you’re treating me
He stays silent, but I can see that he wants to escape, eager to get away from me.
S
If he went ahead with the engagement tomorrow, it would be over for us for good. I wouldn’t be able to forgive him, and I certainly wouldn’t fight for someone who was already engaged to someone else.
He would destroy everything, and I needed him to know that. He turns around, ready to leave even though I was falling apart in front of him.
“Apollo,” I say, my voice cracking, feeling my world crashing down, “if you get engaged to Jada tomorrow, I won’t let you back into my life. It will be the end for us. I absolutely mean these words.”
He pauses, his hands gripping the door handle. He lingers for a moment, saying nothing.
In that instant, I wondered if there was a chance he might change his mind.
I held my breath as he turned to meet my gaze once more.
“You asked me while in my room that night if I have feelings for you,” he says suddenly, his gaze steady. “The answer is no.”
His words hit me like a punch to the gut as he flung open the door and stormed out of the bathroom.
I sank to the cold tiled floor, tears streaming down my face. I couldn’t even muster the strength to pick myself up; the ache in my heart felt too heavy to
bear.
I didn’t realize how much of an impact Apollo had on my life until
now.
Why was I in so much pain? I knew Apollo was my mate, but it wasn’t like he had marked me or anything. Why had I let myself get so attached? Why had i fallen so hard?
I’d let this happen. It was my fault for falling for Apollo knowing his player ways from the start. He was around for years, I knew he was never serious
about anyone.
Why did I think that I was any different?
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This is all your fault Lana. All
your fault.
